My academic performance... had to be sacrificed, for the good of the guild. Only the good players are on at night, and that's when the real battles take place! I would be letting them down if I was asleep, or preparing for class. For the sake of LOLOL, I could stay up all night! Though…. the next morning would always be painful.
[ all of this talk, it’s making him miss it… even if he’s been transplanted into a world resembling it. a wistful sigh. by now… maybe he’s lost his #2 title on the shooting star server.
how depressing.
though— ] I wonder if I can be a useful person here? Even though… I live the sad lonely life of an aimless college student at home.
[ He sighs. Think of the people you're letting down when you play LOLOL, Yoosung! Jumin's not about to take back his internship offer—he's a man of his word—but life's lessons will come to Yoosung soon enough. For now, the young man is lucky he has someone like Jumin to guide him through it. ]
Did you not read my letter? Have more faith in yourself. By arriving in this world, we start with a blank slate. At this point, you only become what you want to be. I want to be a successful businessman, of course.
[ It's also what he's used to, but nothing can stop him from becoming one again. ]
I should have known. Somehow I can’t picture you as anything else.
[ some people… are just meant to do certain things. it’s destiny, right? jumin has a kind destiny and his—
he’s not sure what his is.
it’s kind of unsettling.
a pause after before he answers jumin’s question, one that’s a bit too long, punctuated with indecision. he did know what he wanted to do once, but that revolved around rika. a bit of a stilted laugh : ] That's right, none of you actually know my major. Just telling you seems way too easy. Shouldn't you be able to guess correctly?
[ Well, whatever Jumin does, he believes he's bound to excel in it. That aside, Yoosung's goals... Come to think of it, Jumin never bothered asking about his major either. Wasn't it the sort of information you just offer? ]
Oh. [ Yoosung was fond of doing volunteer work back then, but that was also because of Rika. And he was plenty fond of Rika. ] I can't say I'm surprised.
[ It would have been his second guess. Yoosung has a kind heart and a penchant for helping people, even when he doesn't feel like he can.
Ever since… Rika disappeared I haven’t been interested in anything besides gaming. Things were much easier when she was cheering me on. I always felt that I could do anything because she believed in me.
[ is it something he still wants to do…? sometimes it feels like the members of the rfa are leagues ahead of him, and he does want to catch up. have a purpose. maybe medicine is it. ] I wanted to be someone she could be proud of.
[ Jumin finds it difficult to relate to Yoosung, even harder to console him. Rika's death had never been a matter he looked back on with anger, fear or regret. It is what it is, and all they had to do was live with it and carry on. ]
I can't say I know how you feel. I've always been sure of myself, so I've never had to rely on anyone for anything before. Personally, I only want to become someone I can be proud of. Only then can I think about being a man for others.
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[ all of this talk, it’s making him miss it… even if he’s been transplanted into a world resembling it. a wistful sigh. by now… maybe he’s lost his #2 title on the shooting star server.
how depressing.
though— ] I wonder if I can be a useful person here? Even though… I live the sad lonely life of an aimless college student at home.
[ he has to git gud. as quickly as possible. ]
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Did you not read my letter? Have more faith in yourself. By arriving in this world, we start with a blank slate. At this point, you only become what you want to be. I want to be a successful businessman, of course.
[ It's also what he's used to, but nothing can stop him from becoming one again. ]
And you?
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[ some people… are just meant to do certain things. it’s destiny, right? jumin has a kind destiny and his—
he’s not sure what his is.
it’s kind of unsettling.
a pause after before he answers jumin’s question, one that’s a bit too long, punctuated with indecision. he did know what he wanted to do once, but that revolved around rika. a bit of a stilted laugh : ] That's right, none of you actually know my major. Just telling you seems way too easy. Shouldn't you be able to guess correctly?
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No.
[ Don't play games with him, man. ]
Tell me.
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[ ... it would have been kind of fun, to hear jumin's guess. though... maybe it would have been something too honest.
...
it's probably better that he didn't hear it. ]
Medicine. It's medicine.
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[ It would have been his second guess. Yoosung has a kind heart and a penchant for helping people, even when he doesn't feel like he can.
And, well. Medicine is a course for masochists. ]
Is it something you still want to do?
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[ is it something he still wants to do…? sometimes it feels like the members of the rfa are leagues ahead of him, and he does want to catch up. have a purpose. maybe medicine is it. ] I wanted to be someone she could be proud of.
I wish I could give a clearer answer.
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I can't say I know how you feel. I've always been sure of myself, so I've never had to rely on anyone for anything before. Personally, I only want to become someone I can be proud of. Only then can I think about being a man for others.
[ He takes a long pause. ]
What about becoming a hero?